I had a dream. Just a simple
dream that another girls may have in their lives. A dream of a family I built
myself with a husband who loves me and provide everything I need. Together we
will grow up the children using God’s Word as the first Guide Book at all. I
found someone who was very kind and I thought he’s the one. I put my hope in
him wholeheartedly. I thought he would make my dreams come true since it’s a
simple dream. But many-many hardship I passed with him to come at the point
that he wasn’t destined for me. My ruined dream, which was closer in my eyes
that time, had shattered, buried, died tragically.
One day, with an empty and broken
heart, I came to get a new hope, a new living passion inside of my frozen heart
to “Pesta Raja-Raja”. And yes, I found my new hope and HE gave me a new
personal commandment for me for the next plan He gave to me.
After hearing the things HE said
to me through HIS loving bride, my soul suddenly rejoices. My spirit fled with
happiness. I feel the passion injected into me. THIS IS MY REPLACEMENT DREAM!
THIS IS MY NEW DREAM! I HAVE FOUND IT!! CLEARLY, I WILL FIND MY TRUE DESTINY
THROUGH THIS!
I know there will be a number of
obstacles, but that’s strengthen my faith inside of HIM. I TRUST HIM! I KNOW HE
IS GOD WHO PROVIDE! ONCE HE CALLED ME, HE WILL EQUIPPED ME AS WELL.
Dilemma just entered, when you
came deeper into my heart. As a very good friend of mine, I admitted that your
affection and care had almost unto me. My family’s expectation as well as my
expectation of my future with you, suddenly filled my head. Yes, once you said
you might leave me to go somewhere else, I almost done something that I might
regret now. That’s why I got that dream. It just reminded me for my previous
mistake. Remind me NOT TO PUT MY HOPE INTO SOMEONE ELSE. I MUST PUT MY HOPE,
DREAMS, FUTURE, MY LIFE FOR JESUS ALONE SINCE HE IS THE OWNER OF MY LIFE. I
might be forget about HIS COMMAND for me and my dream as HIS dream if I really
accepted your offering hands that time. Not that I refused you yet. I’m just
choose the the BEST and MY PRIORITY FOR SO LONG. Cause i know we could go
together to fulfill HIS CALLING. It’s worth more, isn’t it?
Truthfully say, I truly put my
hope in you once when you said your will to take me. I saw in my imagination,
my dreams that shattered before, it lives again with you. BUT... MY LORD really don't wanna me do so... MY LORD HAD FINISHED WITH HIS JEALOUSY TOWARD MY
PREVIOUS BOYFRIEND SINCE I PUT LOTS OF MY HOPE ON HIM. And surely HE don’t want
to let me get another boyfriend just to make me ignore HIM once more.
I give you up into Jesus Hands,
cause I know He will protect you as well as your heart. If one day, it will be our
day to unite and be a couple, it will be. Now, I’m sorry for sure. I choose to
be with my LORD for my lifetime until HE brings you HIMSELF into my life and
bless our relationship. Once, I think it is okay to be with you officially, but
You already know “the rule”. I can’t be with you yet. Many things to do before
going to my very own tiny dream, I choose to fulfill MY LORD’s BIGGER DREAM
first. I, also, have to despise my pride, my dreams, my family’s expectations,
my selfishness, and eagerly to wait. You already know how hard for me, since
truly, I wanna be with you when I come to my ex’s wed. Yes, I know, it some
kind of show off. So that’s why, Lord wouldn’t allow me to do so. Still, we can
be a very good friend. It’s always nice to talk to you. And i like the way you
open your heart to share, so we can talk heart to heart many times.
And for the time being, let put
our eyes to JESUS only. Just wait patiently, do everything HE asked us to do
first. Our portion will soon be coming.
Jesus author of my life
Holder of my hand
I trust in You for all my days
Jesus there is none like You
Who love me like You
Who keep me like You do
Jesus You're the only one
In whom i put trust
In whom i put hope
You’ll never let me go
You will never change
You gave your life for me
That’s why i worship You
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